Turning, Turning

I began working at the age of 14.  I started to babysit pretty regularly for one family and missed every high school soccer and basketball game (we didnt have a football team) because of it.   I didn't care.  Then.  At age 16 I joined the wonderful world of retail (at christmas mind you) and believe it or not really enjoyed myself.  Its been 11 years since then and I have other work experience to offer included but not limited too: banking, nanny-ing, costume maker, librarian and more retail.   

I have never been fired, asked to resign or laid off.

Until now.

I was told that in two weeks I will no longer be employed by the company I am currently working for.  Granted yes, they gave me notice. But what really grinds my gears, as Peter would say, is the fact that those in my department that are not getting laid off all were hired a good 6 months if not more AFTER me.  I mean really?  Does company loyalty and senoirity not mean anything anymore?  I asked if this was in any way related to my job performance and my supervisor said "No, you're one of the best I have."

So I'm getting laid off why? 

To top that all off, I have no call back date which means that I am not guarenteed to have a job.   I'm upset, and a lot scared.  Until I know for sure what amount I'll be getting from unemployment I don't know if I'll be able to pay my bills.  I can't just go get another full time job because I live in a tourist town that is winding down for the season.  (The lay-offs are not uncommon in this area, in fact they are jokingly referred to as winter vacation.  However, usually the begin in January, not November.  And I'm not included on the list.) Not to mention that I know by next spring when tourism (hopefully) picks back up I'll be back (hopefully).

So after my massive meltdown and pity party I calmed down and decided to look at this as a much needed break.  I was lucky enough to get a part time job (once again in retail) for christmas that will help me to supplement my unemployment until my job calls me back. 

Pro's
No more having to be at the office at 7 am.
Greatly reduced driving on ice covered death traps also known as roads with huge hills.
Living in my comfy clothes all day
Less office politics/bull****
Being able to catch up on my soaps!
and most importantly:
WORK ON MY BOOK!!!

Con's
a lot less money
a lot less security
a lot more worry.

It's a toss up.  I'm a pisces so I'm in two minds about everything, anyway.  On the one hand, the lightened load will give me a much needed break.  On the other hand, I was raised to work, to take pride in what I do and not to free-load, because no matter what unemployment is not a career choice.

I don't know what to do. 

My cats have to eat after all.